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Lengthy update beneath a cut... )
dhae_knight_1: My kitten Zasha (Default)
Yes, yes, I'm a fan of B5-spinoff Crusade. And of Galen, the technomage with the lovely accent. That aside...

Who are you?
I'm someone who find it difficult to let people in. I'm a woman who never got socialized as a girl, and so spent my entire childhood wanting to play with the boys, because their games were so much more fun, and they got so many more freedoms than the girls. I'm someone who needs a lot of time to myself. I'm someone who builds worlds as a matter of course. I'm someone who likes to create.

What do you want?
I want a change of scenery. I want to stop going in the straight line I've followed all my life. I want to make a leap of faith. I want to go back to trusting my own ability to adapt as the need arises.

Who do you serve?
I serve my own faith, that people are essentially good. That people never get too old to learn. That we can all become better human beings.

Who do you trust?
My friends. My family. My instincts.

The reason I'm writing this, is because I reached a revelation today. In thinking about what I want, I realized that what I don't want, are the bosses I have today. Bosses with power over me, who are unable to learn from their past mistakes. Who are unwilling to accept criticism. Who won't listen to alternatives.

I'm better than that. I deserve better than that. And I'm going to go out and get better than that.

I'm me. I want change. I serve myself. I trust myself. And I'll make things happen on my own. Not today, not tomorrow - but soon. My mind's made up, now.

dhae_knight_1: My kitten Zasha (Default)
Okay, so things are happening. At last!

My boss got back from vacation today, and called me up to tell me that I'm being transferred to a different library. Which is part 'woohoo' - and part 'OMG, I'm going back to a library I haven't set foot in for two solid years'. Which is kinda terrifying, all on it's own. Also... I don't transfer until April 1st, so I've got a stretch to go, yet.

On the upside is - I'm getting out! Joy to the world!

On the other side (not a downside, not to this, no) is that a) he didn't really know where to put me in the office; b) there's a lot of different employees coming through that library on a weekly basis, given we once ran it with the equivalent of four full-time staff, and c) it's a one-office library. Which means that right now, there are 4 desks crammed into a room the size of a smallish living-room. So... yeah. Maybe I should request he throws in a pair of those big, yellow, goofy-looking hearing-protectors, because I've discovered I'm so sensitive to sound that sometimes I use earplugs at home when the sound of my computer gets to be too much for me. Also? I'm very easily distracted at the moment, so... yeah. A little nervous about the communal office-thing, actually.

But... I'm getting out! :-D

dhae_knight_1: My kitten Zasha (Default)
Yesterday, I got a bit of workplace joy.
Beneath a cut... )

In related news - My former boss is now back to being all friendly and talkative. Meh. I'm single-syllable'ing her for the time being. ;-)


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June 2012



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